I have to battle myself for myself all the time. What an interesting concept. I have so much going on in my brain that I have to fight to turn it off.
I am also noticing that sometimes I have to battle myself to be connected to other people. I really want that connection, as much as possible. It is terrifying. People are terrifying. They lie, steal, cheat, drain your energy...etc. But the truth is that I want them. Sometimes this "getting to know you" feels like a maze to be wound through, other times it is a battlefield a howling, clashing, screaming, bloody mess to be fought through and to survive. Perhaps this is not the most zen attitude, but it is my experience.
I have found too that after surviving that battle we are stronger.
I am thankful for the people in my life who have fought me for me and won. I am thankful for those I have fought for and won.
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3 comments:
Again a deep consideration.
To explain this need for connection, which I share, I wrote this: http://thedustylens.blogspot.com/2008/03/reflections.html
for we need others to look at ourselves, as we mirror ourselves in our fellow beings.
Wish you a nice day :-)
A.
P.S. thank you for your comment on my blog. I am not sure either whether I should "explain" the connection between the photo and the text. I started it only because some dear friends asked me to do so, but you are already the second person expressing doubts on this. I should probably rethink what I need to write in there, if anything. Thanks again for your candor.
Thanks checking in on my blog. What kind of tai chi do you do?
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